So where am I now? Truth be told is that the word better...doesn't really describe my situation. I am...in a better place generally I mean I love my apartment and I have friends who are just...fantastic but...I still can feel the hollow. I still feel it tearing away at me sometimes. When I'm alone and cold there are just...moments that I think back and remember what I've lost...and I miss it. My hope is that when I reach the limit of Five Years Gone I will finally have found something that just...brightens my day. But...until then I'm still pretty alone. My heart calls out to those I've lost, may you find some peace.